Kylie Richards Interviewby Ray | September 9th, 2006
“I have an extremely high sex drive… I also love World of Warcraft, so I’m very comfortable around dorks.”
RAY: You realize who you look like.
KYLIE: Yeah, Elisha Cuthbert — The Girl Next Door. I get that a lot.
RAY: Sorta ironic…
KYLIE: I actually considered using a joke porn name like Elisha Cuntbush.
RAY: That would rule.
KYLIE: Yeah, but my boobs are too small. It wouldn’t make sense. I fucking hate U2, dude. Ever since they came out with that Beautiful Day song. It’s irritating and it’s not entertaining. It’s not good music.
RAY: Did you like them before that song?
KYLIE: No, I had never really heard of them before.
RAY: How’s that possible? U2 is fucking unavoidable.
KYLIE: Exactly, which I still can’t figure out.
RAY: How young are you?
KYLIE: I was born in 1985. When I first heard that song, I was irritated, but I thought… It’ll pass. Apparently not. I’m still hearing it.
RAY: What’s funny is — The last time U2 was actually interesting was before you were born.
KYLIE: Well, it’s 2006 now and they’re not making good music. Blink 182 is another one. Same thing, I don’t like it. It’s irritating.
RAY: What music do you like?
KYLIE: I like Mars Volta. I like a lot of grunge. Like Soundgarden. It reminds me of a depression state back when I was 15 or 16.
RAY: What did you do before porn?
KYLIE: I worked at Radio Shack.
RAY: But you speak perfect English…
KYLIE: [Laughs] My boss was from Mexico. He was a greedy motherfucker.
RAY: How did you get into porn?
KYLIE: I was recruited on MySpace.com. I was approached by the worst shady wannabe agent/pimp. He moved slow on me. At first, he said something like “we think you’re really beautiful… We saw your pictures. We would like to know if you would like to model for us and you’ll make $500 to $5,000 a day.” So I wrote back “wow, this is such a priveledge. Tell me more about your agency. Is there any catch?” He wrote back and told me there was no catch — That I would be paid either in cash or by check right after I modeled, and that everything was legit.
RAY: Did you question that?
KYLIE: I didn’t want to ask too many questions because I didn’t want to be a pain. I didn’t want to be one of those people who asked so many questions that it made the other person feel creepy. So I agreed to it and he picked me up for the first day. He was with his fiancee. These were huge people. As in, massively obese. The fiancee was pregnant, but you couldn’t tell because she was so fat. It looked like she was going to go the bathroom one day and poop-out a child in the toilet. Both these people looked exactly the same, just different faces and haircuts. When I got in the car, it smelled really bad. Like burps, dude. Or like balony farts. Like if somebody were to eat SPAM or miniture weenie sausages and then burp in your face. It smelled like these two freaks had been burping the whole way over and didn’t even care to freshen-up the car before I got in.
RAY: Welcome to the glamourous world of adult modeling.
KYLIE: [Laughs] I know, dude… Seriously. But I act all non-chalaunt, like it didn’t bother me. So the guy takes me to their apartment in Valencia, where he has all these lights set-up. It was kind of weird for me to see this. Then the fiancee starts putting make-up on me. Not even good makeup — I can do it better on my own. Then they hand me the paperwork. This is all taking me by surprise — I really don’t know what’s going on and I’m starting feel a little uncomfortable. There’s a couch there, and just lights. So right of the bat, I knew something was shady. But I think maybe it’s an interview, or just a little posing or something. But I didn’t see any clothes there — I was just wearing what I had on. So then they start making comments to each other, like inside-jokes, which made it even creepier. So I sit on the couch and the guy is like “take off your clothes”. I was like “excuse me?” He was like, “yeah, didn’t we agree that we would pay you this amount of money?” I don’t remember the exact amount, but it was around $100. So he says “take off your clothes and act sexy.” I was hesitant… But I didn’t have a car at the time, and I don’t like to make people go through a bunch of trouble and then let them down. They basically cornered me. So I did it. I knew it was a mistake, but the idea of making them angry scared me. They were so good with words, which psychologically makes a girl feel like she has to go through with it. So I did it. And what sucks is, I started my period that day. Then the guy goes in the other room and has a little meeting with his fiancee… And I’m just sitting there thinking “what the fuck am I doing here?” Then he comes back and tells me that there’s a VONS right down the street. He says “I can get you some sponges, and what people do is they put sponges up there so that it doesn’t show on camera.” By this point, I’m trying to make it less uncomfortable for them as it as for me. I was new to everything and I didn’t want to make an ass of myself. So he and I get to the store and buy some sponges. Later as we’re walking-back, he goes “I was talking with my fiancee, and we will give you $200 if you give me a blowjob, POV.” I was like “what?!” But he was very stern. Not very comprimising in his language. It was basically like “we need this and we will give you $200 — You will go home with $200.” At the time I wasn’t really broke, I was more concerned with how I was going to get this over with so I could go home really fast. So I ended-up doing it. I felt so horrible afterwards. Worse than I’d ever felt in my life. And I’m a very sexual person. That was just a really shady experience, dude. Some fat motherfucker and his pregnant fiancee doing that to a 20-year-old girl? Not cool at all.
RAY: How old were they?
KYLIE: They were in their mid 30′s. They were partners. The girl was a bitch. She made it known that she was stern. They were both just — pigs. That’s what I thought of the moment I saw them. Later I came home and felt like I’d had the worst night of my life. I had nothing to do with them ever again. They were parasites, dude. I mean, I got my $200 — But what’s $200 when you just lost your innocence, ya know? Especially unwillingly — At least in your mind.
RAY: So what made you continue with porn?
KYLIE: Because I’m addicted to it. I’m addicted to porn! And I would never imagine that happening to a girl. But I like to watch when a girl is really into it and she feels comfortable. Exploring a person’s sexuality — For some reason, I’m really into that. I watch porn all the time. I have computer access in my room and when you have that, the first thing you do is watch porn. So thanks to my experience with the pigs, I realized how local the porn business was and I looked into it. I wanted to get back into it legitimately. I mean, fuck — I was single, I was 20 years old, and I had hormones. So I figured I might as well. I learned that I needed to get an AIM test. When I was there, this lady referred me to an agent.
RAY: What kind of porn do you like to watch?
KYLIE: Orgies. I first got introduced to orgies at Erotica LA. I got this super-hot DVD from Wicked Pictures called Curse Eternal. It’s pretty much the only DVD I watch now. They have this massive, awesome orgy in it. It’s the best, dude. I love watching that DVD.
RAY: You would love DrunkSexOrgy.com. It’s shot in Europe. Some of the orgies involve up to 100 people.
KYLIE: No way!
KYLIE: Dude, my agent is sending me to Miami at the end of the month. I’m scared, too. I’ve never been on a plane before. Except for when I was three years old. I got kidnapped. They flew me to Las Vegas. It was on the news everywhere. It was a crazy story. I don’t remember it much. Trannies are also interesting. Like movies where guys get with what they assume are girls and then they discover she’s got a cock, but they roll with it. That’s hot.
RAY: Like TrannySurprise.com.
KYLIE: Is that one good?
RAY: It’s not my thing… But you would dig it.
KYLIE: I watched my first porn at 15. You always remember your first porn. It was a girl in a dungeon. This old guy saves her and brings her up to a tower and turns into this ‘Fabio’ type guy and they have sex. That was the first vision of porn that I ever had. I didn’t know what sex looked like before then. I used to think that sex was just a guy sliding his penis into the vagina one time, excreting semen, pulling out, and that’s it.
RAY: That sounds about right.
KYLIE: [Laughs] No it doesn’t!
RAY: That’s what I do.
KYLIE: That’s what you do? [Laughs] That’s horrible! That’s impossible, dude… That’s preposterous.
RAY: Well… Stick around, you might get lucky. Where did you find that porno?
KYLIE: I was staying with my mom’s best friend for a weekend. One night, I was up late watching TV and I see a channell called “Adult Entertainment”. So I push the button and my eyes shot wide-open. That was the first time I actually had an orgasm. I didn’t even know how to masturbate, really. I was just sitting there in heat. Sometimes when that happens, I naturally have an orgasm without even having to touch myself. My mind just scintillates will all these erotic visions. When I see something that erotic, I get heated-up and just naturally excrete.
RAY: If only guys worked that way.
KYLIE: Dude… That’s the best kind of orgasm. Just watching and mentally teasing myself. It’s the best. I still do that now, actually. I think the first time you masturbate to orgasm, that orgasm determines what all future orgasms will feel like. My teenage years sucked so bad, that from 15 thru 18, all I had to think about were the visions from that porno. It was the only thing I had that I could really take sexual pleasure in.
RAY: Where are you from?
KYLIE: I live in Pasadena now. Before that, I lived in Saugus.
RAY: Where’s Saugus? It sounds like a metal band.
KYLIE: Saugus is in Santa Clarita. It’s a desolate sort of place. There are houses on one side and a desert on the other. I used to go to a lot of parties at Cal Arts. There are some really interesting people there. Everyone is different and they accept everybody. All love and no segregation whatsoever. You know how most schools have these little, unspoken cliques? There’s nothing like that there. Everyone is totally cool with a different style. They’re all artists. And COC’s right there — College of the Canyons. All the losers go there, but all the awesome people go to Cal Arts. I was on the swim team at COC.
RAY: So you’re a loser.
KYLIE: It’s subjective.
RAY: Where’d you go to high school?
KYLIE: Downey, California. I was adopted by my Mexican mom. But she only had me for seven weeks and then sent me away to a Christian Discipleship. It was a boarding school — Like, nothing but Jesus Christ 24/7. The uniforms were these baggy shirts that said ‘B.A.D.D.’ which stands for ‘Born Again Delivered Disciples.’
RAY: Yikes. Isn’t that a song by W.A.S.P?
RAY: Never mind.
KYLIE: Yeah… Anyway, that’s a story in itself. The place is right here in Los Angeles. It’s at this creepy abandoned hospital where Marilyn Monroe was brought when she died.
RAY: I think they shoot porn there now.
KYLIE: Shut up, no way. Can you imagine being barracaded in that hospital for a year? That was my life. They used to put 20 girls in one bunk room. It was three bunks right next to each other.
RAY: That’s hot.
KYLIE: I can’t imagine porn being shot there! There’s nothing but missionaries living there.
RAY: Well… I think they’re only allowed to shoot in the missionary position.
KYLIE: [Laughs] That’s a trip dude. They focused on strenuous exercise every day. If you were really bad, they wouldn’t let you go to sleep at 9:30, they’d make you run up and down those halls until 10:30 — Then you could go to sleep. That place sucked. Lots of tears… Lots of fears.
RAY: These were the ‘depressing years’ you mentioned?
KYLIE: Yeah. Before that, I was a foster kid. My dad died very tragically. My mom couldn’t handle four kids so she gave us away. My siblings and I were seperated in pairs. My sister and brother were put in a Mexican household, and Me and my other sister — who’s kind of mentally ill — were taken by a black family. Totally different cultures, completely different cities. Later, when we were reunited, my Mexican mom adopted us from our black family. Which is really sad for me because I loved my black family and the Mexican family were horrible. We were abused. We got put down so much. It was a really, really tough time. I was ten years old when this all went down, in 1995. That was not a good year for me. It was also when that Macarena song was popular, so that made it even worse.
RAY: [Laughs] Were you chastized for not knowing the moves?
KYLIE: Please… I grew up in a black family. I’ve got rhythm, fool. But Catholics are so hypocritical — One day, my Mexican mom decided that she was going to take us to a new Church called ‘Science of Mind’. I just remember we had to sing and hold hands with old people in a big circle. It was crazy.
RAY: You certainly had some creepy times.
KYLIE: Tons. I almost broke free and ran away from Discipleship. That was awesome. I stole a screwdriver from an overseer’s desk when she wasn’t looking. I hid it under my mattress. I planned this for a month straight — Every time I would go to the bathroom, I would chisel-away around the bolts on the bars over the window. There were six bolts and I would chisel away at them very carefully. It took me about five weeks.
RAY: Did you wait for a loud thunderstorm and hang a poster over the hole?
KYLIE: What? No. It was a hot summer day. It was seventeen years old and I wanted to enjoy my summer. I had developed vulgaris acne, so I was kind of hesitant about going out and showing how my face had gotten so grotesque. But I decided to do it anyway. My senior year was going to start at my old school and I didn’t want to miss-out on that. Both my sisters and my brother got to go to their senior year. So I was shitting bricks. I would not accept what was happening to me. Anyway — After an initial failed escape attempt, an overseer went to wash her hands in the bathroom and the bars just fell off. They called us all in and said that if we didn’t confess who did it, we would all get punished — and the punishment was weird. They would go to the thrift store and buy the ugliest clothes they could find and make us wear them every day.
RAY: What did they make you wear?
KYLIE: My outfit was a Gilligan’s Island look. Highwater hot pink pants that end at the calves. They would make us wear this stuff and go in front of a church and sing. It was supposed to be a humbling experience, I believe. We would also write five thousand passages. So everybody was depressed. I kind of felt bad because some of the girls peed in their pants because they got scared. Some of them were illiterate. So eventually I fessed-up. I got put into solitary for a month and I had to write a fifty-thousand word essay on why I should obey the Lord, and the rules in general. I basically had to write a book.
RAY: Who the fuck had the time to read it?
KYLIE: Well, they did… I guess. These adults that were watching us were volunteers. So they’re all self-righteous types who sit on their butts. They’re just doing it to make the pastor happy. They have a quota to fill — like a cop — so they do it. All for the work of God. It was horrible.
RAY: Why were you sent there?
KYLIE: I ran away a couple times. And the neighbors complained sometimes. They were tattle-tales. It was just a very depressing scene. Things are better now. I have a real appreciation for freedom.
RAY: Were you a troublemaker at home?
KYLIE: My Mexican mom smothered me. I had my first boyfriend at sixteen. You know how they say your first relationship is kind of the foundation for how you’re going to treat all relationships? It makes sense. The first relationship I had, I cheated with his best friend. It was very scandalous. But his friend was very shady and seductive. If I was having trouble, I would go to him because that’s all I knew. He used that to his advantage. He was always like ‘can I get a little something…?’ The guy lived in Compton. He wasn’t a brother, tho. He was very ghetto-white. If you see a white person in Compton, beware. They’re just as deadly as a black person, maybe worse because they have to ‘own up’ — They have to prove themselves. But this guy was just a loser.
RAY: Do your ex-boyfriends know that you’re doing porn?
KYLIE: Well, some… And they go crazy when they find me on the internet. But I never go back with an ex-boyfriend. If you break up with somebody once, it’s inevitable that it won’t work again.
RAY: How long have you been in porn?
KYLIE: Since summer of 2005. But I decided to get into it legitimately in January 2006. It took me a while to call that reference number I got from the nurse at AIM. So I’ve only been doing porn officially since March 2006. I’m relatively new, but I feel I was exposed somewhat illigitimately. After my experience with the “pigs”, my first agent was a crazy fucker. He was a foreign, fat motherfucker who thought he was the shit. He used his foreign accent and would play-up the work he did. He’d say “hey, I got you this awesome job — It’s with me!” Blah. I never did a scene with him. But every day he would want me to. I talked to another one of his girls and she told me he got her to do a scene with him, and that she was going to regret it for the rest of her life. She warned me to never ever do a scene with him. I was not attracted to him at all, so I never did. I want to sue the guy right now, actually. He doesn’t have a legitimate agency. He’s not registered with the State. When I asked him about it, he actually threatened to sue me, based on the fact that I had not paid him some agency fee. Which is B.S. because I’m very reliable with stuff like that. He actually told my current agency of my debt to him, which is a Federal offense. You can not tell a third party about somebody’s debt. That’s illegal. So I can sue him for $5,000 for each claim he made. But I haven’t done it. I don’t think I’m gonna. I guess I’m lazy. But the fucker deserves it. He drives a fucking Stratus. I’ve never seen his office. I think his office is his car. The guy is a low-life pimp. He used to take me to meet with producers and I would always get this feeling that everybody hated him — That they only agreed to look at me because he was standing right there. Nobody he brought me to ever booked me. Ever. He made everybody feel akward and would alway brings really ugly models. Every girl on his go-sees were these buck-teethed women in their 30′s from Kentucky with two kids. It sucked because I felt like I was a part of that. It’s not attractive and it didn’t make me want to be in the business at all. So I never worked when I was with him. I was always too afraid. When I got on SexyJobs.com and I posted my profile, it was like a whole new world opened-up. I mean, yeah, there will always be your standard shady types to deal with. But at least I could check people out and choose who I wanted to work with. Now I’m on top of my game all the time. That’s how I discovered LightHouse Talent. I signed a contract with them.
RAY: What type of porn do you like to make?
KYLIE: I prefer gonzo. Being a porn enthusiast, when I watch porn I skip over any kind of intro and go straight to the sex. I know a lot of people do the same shit. I can watch porn for hours. Some days I sit at my computer all day and never get anything accomplished. I don’t like having to sit through ‘intros’. They don’t excite me at all or get me riled-up.
RAY: I’m now going to have to check your crotch — For balls.
KYLIE: [Laughs] I’m a girl, dude! I swear… I just happen to love gonzo! The first gonzo porn I saw had this girl sitting on a couch who says “I’d like to be fucked”. Then these two guys come in and they just have at her. It was the best sex I’d ever seen. It’s very logical, you know? Why would anybody waste 15 minutes of their life watching an intro when they’re already horny as hell? People who go to porn sites are already horny.
RAY: Conventional wisdom says women want to see a plot in porno.
KYLIE: Not me. I don’t want to see any romance in porn. At least, not the types of intros I’ve seen — Which usually contain the shit girls are repulsed by. For instance, when they have a girl at a mall, checking-out clothes and some dudes come in with a camera — She acts all innocent and surprised when they want to take her to their ‘studio’ and make her an ‘actress’. That is so fucking lame. And I don’t want to see any more videos of young girls getting their cherry popped by big fucking black dudes. It’s fake. Everybody knows it’s fake. You can tell by the bad acting skills. It’s horrible. In my second scene ever, my agent put me with Shane Diesel. Worst experience of my fucking life. While I was waiting for him to arrive, I got curious and looked him up on the computer. When I saw how big his cock was, I was horrified. I was scared to fucking death! When I came into this industry, I had only had sex three times. But I’m very intimate and sexual in my own mind. The first thing I did was I went downstairs, found a bottle of rum and gulped it down. It was a horrible scene, dude. But I really needed money at the time. It was for Hush Hush Productions for a site called MyDaughterIsFuckingANigger.com. It hurt so bad. I was crying during the scene. After that, I quit porn. I started working as a sales rep at a normal company. I was like no more of that shit. I’m done.
RAY: But you weren’t done.
KYLIE: No… My sexual energy is so intense that I was able to overcome all these bad experiences. I have an incredibly high sexual drive. My sexual drive is so experimental and creative that I would never be able to be ruined by a bad experience. My approach is that I always go into a scene after I watch at least two hours of porn beforehand — And not touch myself. That’s how I get really into it. Then when I get on set, I pretend I’m a voyer — Watching the scene while I’m doing it. I become the part. That’s the way I would think when I was a kid — sixteen years old in my bunk bed. I would just close my eyes and envision what I would do in various situations. You realize that when you get into the industry, a lot of people are just “acting” in scenes because they’ve become very jaded. I don’t ever want to become jaded. I always want my porn to be authentic.
RAY: Do you have any sexual fantasies left?
KYLIE: An orgy, for sure. A really good one. The thing is, I wouldn’t feel comfortable doing it unless I have implants. I’m sorry to say that. I know a lot of people are against it. My boobs are perfect, but they’re very small. For my orgy fantasy to be ideal, I would need them to be of adequate size. When I’m done with porn, I’m going to get a very good 90210 boob job. I’m talking quality — Nothing shady. Believe me, I am done with shady. I just want to have sex with a group of really hot people that are really into it, and I don’t want to look down on my body and be embarassed. You know what I always get cast as?
RAY: A teeny-bopper.
KYLIE: Exactly! I am so sick of saying shit like “This is my first scene… I’ve never touched a black guy’s dick before.” I’ve only done two interracial scenes, but I can’t do anal for the life of me. I tried to do it myself once, using fingers. I dressed really hot and tried to seduce myself. But it’s not my thing.
RAY: What’s the wildest thing you’ve ever done?
KYLIE: I had sex with three different guys in one day. I went to bed that night with a smile on my face. I know guys do that shit all the time, but it wasn’t scandalous. I really liked each of the guys as people and it was all very spontaneous. It was during a very sporadic time in my life. I was 19 years old. The first guy called me, and I still don’t know why. He was one of those guys all the girls talk about and I had a really ugly haircut and really low self-esteem.
RAY: That’s probably why he called.
KYLIE: Yeah, probably. Anyway I went to his house and we had a couple drinks… One thing lead to another and we ended up fucking. It wasn’t akward at all. We were just young and having fun. So afterwards, I went home to relax and suddenly my ex-boyfriend calls me. He’s from Russia. We were together for a little over a year. He goes to UCLA and is a cognitive science major but he has no common sense. He just asks me straight-up “do you want to have sex?” I laughed. Having just had sex, I thought it was kind of weird that he asked that. But he gave me a good, logical reason for asking. His finals were coming up and he was very stressed-out. He needed to release himself and get rid of all that sexual anxiety. Since I cared about his future and his career, I invited him to my apartment. There was no talking — We just took our clothes off and went at it. After he left, I was alone at my place watching The Incredibles, — which is a family-oriented film and completely non-sexual. Then around 10:30PM, I’m falling asleep and my gay friend calls me. He tells me there’s a crazy house party going on and he wants me to go with him. So I get up and get dressed and we go to this huge party up in Valencia — Which is known for rich kids who have huge house parties, by the way. So I end-up getting crazy drunk and I have a threesome. A girlfriend and I seduced this guy in the bathroom. This was the first time I had teamed up with another girl. She was beautiful. Two hot girls on this guy, and his attitude just changed instantly. You could actually see it. It’s funny to see the reaction on a guy’s face when things suddenly turn sexual.
RAY: What about porn bothers you the most?
KYLIE: Just that a lot of things in porn feel artificial. But when I can feel that the person I’m working with is actually into it, nothing turns me on more. It doesn’t matter what we’re doing — just as long as I have a connection with that person. If the other person isn’t into it, it affects what I do and I’m unable to reflect back. If there’s no chemical energy at all during the scene, it doesn’t produce a good product. Most of the time, the male talent on set is very chauvenistic and piggish. I hate that. But I try to think about what will turn me on. I imagine different scenarios. Being a porn enthusiast, I can see bullshit right away and it totally turns me off. People are smarter than that. What’s the point of porn if it’s not authentic?
RAY: So what’s your strategy for finding authentic porn?
KYLIE: I always look for the most intense thing I can find and hope for the best. So much of the shit out there is fake. The boy/girl scenes are all bullshit. They don’t turn me on any more — I’ve seen all that. I want something real and authentic. Producers need to realize — if it’s gonna be hardcore, get two performers who are into it. Don’t get an inexperienced 18-year-old girl and put her in an akward situation. It’s going to bad for you and your company. It’s bad for everyone — Especially the girl. It’s going to cause mental damage in her frickin’ head. She’s not going to be sexually active with her husband. You’re making a negative ripple-effect. That shit goes on for generations. That’s how she’ll treat her daughter. It’s not cool. You don’t put a girl in a hardcore threesome who’s never had experience on camera. You’re putting money into something that isn’t going to give back. But it’s not gonna change. There are too many shady fucking agents pushing girls into videos like this every day. They say “You need to do this if you want money… Do you want money? Or do you not want money?” They say “you need to do this and get it over with.” It makes everybody unhappy. I dislike agents who work like that. It doesn’t make a girl want to do porn. She may have had a thought about going into this business, but she’s going to have a distaste for sex for the rest of her life.
RAY: What do you do for fun?
KYLIE: I like to watch porn a lot! [Laughs] I watched like three hours of porn last night before I went to bed. I like to use my hand to rub against my clit. I just rub it. That’s the only thing that gets me off. I do it while I watch porn. I have the best orgasms doing that. I’m not really into using toys. I once was sent on a shoot where the director handed me a toy and told me to sit down and play with myself. I’d never used a toy in my life so I totally wasn’t into it. But I went ahead and tried it and of course I cried during the scene because I was thinking too much. I hadn’t prepared myself at all by watching porn before doing this, and tears were rolling down my cheeks while I was pretending to enjoy it. That was a horrible day. A week ago, I took pictures of how my pussy looks from an angle I can never see. Afterwards, I was turned on. I was in my hour of sexuality. I started watching porn. I slowly enticed myself. Rubbing my nipples… Watching an orgy scene. I was really digging it. And I had the biggest orgasm — Not even from touching myself, just kind of like suffocating in the heat of the sexual tension inside myself. I came so hard — It was so huge and big and awesome that I had to change my underwear right away. It was crazy. I really do cum a lot. I may have a problem with that. I excrete lots. My pussy gets very, very hot and very wet.
RAY: Is there anything new you’d like to try?
KYLIE: I’m tired of doing the girl-next-door scenes. I want to wear something sexual and provocative in a scene. I have a few outfits like that, but I would never use them on a shoot. I feel like if something is worn on a shoot it’s tainted. Especially if the scene is horrible and I don’t want to remember what happened. I have a secret drawer where I hide my sexy fishnets and scarves. I like to put them on when I’m alone and look at myself in the mirror. It gets me hot and bothered. Then I like to watch porn when I’m all dressed up sexy like that.
RAY: Do you have any long-term goals?
KYLIE: I’m not really that exposed yet. I want to stay in the industry for another ten months or so. After that, I want to settle down. I know it sounds strange, but these are my child-bearing years. I only want two kids. I’m very logical with my future. A good mom is something that I feel destined to become. And when I’m finished with the industry, I’ll have enough money saved to invest and buy a house. I want to be very smart with my money. A lot of girls blow their money by drinking, doing drugs and partying. I’m not one of those girls. I stay at home on the weekends.
RAY: The best time to go out is on weeknights anyway.
KYLIE: Yeah, I saw some star saying that on the E! channel. He was like “You’re a loser if you go out on the weekend, because it makes you look very desperate.”
RAY: Why do you think you’re so porn-crazed?
KYLIE: My first sexual experience was when I was five years old with another girl. It was a black girl, by the way, when I was living with my black family. We would go in the back yard and get under a sheet. I guess we figured nobody would see us if we did that. So my sexuality has deep roots. My Mexican mom treated us very poorly. She did nothing while we were getting abused by the illegal immigrant who was living at our house. Now she’s getting what she deserves. I can’t even describe to you how bad my childhood was. She was a promoter of that. Now she’s in her mid-70s. She’s old and lonely. It’s hurtful to watch. I think she’s regretful of all the negative things she’s done to us and the things she’s implanted into our subconscious minds. I think about all the times she treated me very poorly. If it wasn’t mental abuse, it was physical abuse — And she was condoning massive sexual abuse. Condoning it! She watched it happen.
RAY: Who was the abuser?
KYLIE: He was this illegal immigrant that she had relations with. It was her ex-husband’s cousin. He’s 45, she’s 70. He’s using her for her money obviously, and to live in America.
RAY: He abused you?
KYLIE: Very much so. It left mental scars in my mind, but it also helped build my character. Humor was the only thing that got me through all that. Humor and sexuality. I’m so lucky that I’m a sexual person. It just drips out of me. I’m just dripping with it — I’m so wet and moist with it… In the heat of the moment, you would never believe how hot and wet I get. I think that all of the videos I’ve been in, they’ve never exposed me in the right light. I have a lot to offer and give. I think the most authentic sexual acts come from girls who have character. You can sense that right away.
RAY: Just like you can sense ‘shady’ right away?
KYLIE: My first agent was very shady. He would lead the girls on and make them believe he was very high-up in the industry and that everybody knew him. He would always whip out this huge folder full of porn company business cards — Just to show off in front of the girls and make them think they would be getting a lot of work. His office was basically his fucking car. Such bullshit. But I didn’t know how the business worked. I felt so akward. Everytime I went into his car, he’d say “great offer!” Blah blah blah. It kina sucks that my first experiences in porn sucked so bad. Do you understand how much that would complicate a girl mentally? I mean, if I were a more sensitive-type. It’s a good thing my heart has been hardened so much. This was after discipleship, after being fostered, after going through abuse. I kind of prepared myself for these events. I knew they would happen eventually.
RAY: Do you have any other interests besides porn?
KYLIE: World of Warcraft. I love it! I’m level 45 right now. I’ve been lagging a little since getting into porn and I know my Guild needs me. They text message me all the time asking when I’m going to come back. My Guild is called The Sad Pandas — We are the most leet of our server.
RAY: Do these nerds know what you look like?
KYLIE: [Laughs] We had this one meet — “Land Parties” they’re called. This one kid drove all the way from New York.
RAY: They must have blown a load in their pants when you walked in.
KYLIE: I try to keep myself low-key when I play. I try not to think about all the sexual tension the boys would feel. But when the land party happened, everybody was like “um, who are you?” I was like “dudes… Don’t you recognize my voice?” And then it hit them. It was so funny because every one of them reacted in their own little dorky way — Which I recognized because I, myself was a huge dork. I had vulgaris acne and wore huge glasses and had braces growing up. So I come from where they are right now. I was in-touch with all of them and it was very humbling to be around them — which I think made them more infatuated with me. But I couldn’t get together with any of them because they were scrawny little kids, ya know? Still, we had this Bacardi 151 and we were drinking and playing and it was so fucking fun. No shady shit went on. None of them had the balls to come up and try to kiss me. They’re not that type. They’ve been made fun of so much that they’re afraid to take the initiative. It’s ironic. I have an extremely high sex drive. But I also love World of Warcraft, so I’m very comfortable around dorks.
RAY: Do you have a website?
KYLIE: I’m considering it. The thing is, I have a definite time-span that I want to be in porn. My goal is ten months. If things are going well, then I’ll probably stay in another year and a half. But I guarantee that my product is going to be quality. People can book me through Lighthouse or contact me directly via email@example.com